In my favorite poem by Robert Frost, Nothing Gold Can Stay, he reminds us that like the seasons of nature, life is one season melting into another, and quickly fading away. This is my attempt to document each season in my life and my family.

Correction: Just the FIVE of us.

Filed under: General — Rachel at 9:55 pm on Monday, July 21, 2008

Me, Kyra, Elijah, Owen, and Baby makes five.

Yep, I found out this morning that the newest little Harmon is on it’s way. We’re so happy!

I know a lot of you will probably think I’m crazy for telling everyone so soon, but I’m going to celebrate every day with this baby. I really have no reason to expect there to be problems with this pregnancy, just because of the last one. I had three healthy, problem free pregnancies before my miscarriage, and I am going to believe that my fifth pregnancy will be healthy and problem free until I have some reason to believe otherwise. So, celebrate with me, friends. I’m going to have a baby!

And just because one of my brothers asked this question today…yes, I do know what causes this. It’s that thing where I have a hot husband, we love each other a lot, and we just so happen to think our kids are awesome. So, yeah. We understand. We kinda like it. ;)

I’m going to the doctor in the morning for blood work. I’d appreciate your prayers that everything goes well. 

 
This is me on the very first day I knew I was pregnant. It was taken late at night when I was tired with no make-up on, but, nevertheless, under that fat unicorn shirt is a wee little answer to prayer.

Just The Four of Us

Filed under: Army, Elijah, Family, Kids, Kyra, Owen, Photos — Rachel at 10:47 pm on Sunday, July 20, 2008

It’s just me and the kiddos for the next forty days. Daddy left for Fort Jackson today. He’s doing a practicum there for the rest of the summer, and we are sure going to miss him.

We love you, Daddy!

Haircuts

Filed under: Elijah, Family, Kids, Owen, Photos — Rachel at 10:34 pm on Sunday, July 20, 2008


Elijah got a haircut the other day, and Owen decided he needed one, too. Daddy had already suggested I cut his cute, blond curls off, so I decided to go ahead and let Owen get his first haircut.


Mike the Barber let Owen check out the clippers before he put them to his head.


Owen was very calm. Elijah freaked out for his first few haircuts.


This picture is my favorite.


It kind of hurts my heart to see how much bigger and older he looks with his new haircut. No straggly blond curls around his neck and ears anymore.

I hope it grows out curly again. :)

I love my garden.

Filed under: Photos — Rachel at 10:19 pm on Monday, July 14, 2008


There are 25 cucumbers in this pile ‘o veggies.


These are my hands after a couple hours of blackberry picking at my Papaw’s.

Awesome!

Filed under: Videos — Rachel at 12:51 pm on Thursday, July 10, 2008

Okay, this random video I found on youtube is so awesome. Like, it rocks. Sibling relationships in the age of digital cameras and youtube rock! Can you imagine how awesome it would have been when we were kids to be able to not only record our brothers and sisters’ ridiculous behavior, but to also be able to broadcast it to the entire world. And by world I mean all the kids at school, your big brother at college, and the girl your dorky little brother has a crush on. Oh, yeah! That would have rocked.

So, anyway, I give you this rocking display of awesomeness so aptly titled “my dorky little brother”. This little dude rocks my world.

Sorrow

Filed under: Loss, Love — Rachel at 11:29 am on Wednesday, July 9, 2008

Today was hard.

I was nervous about volunteering for so many reasons. Not the least of which was my sensitivity to all things baby. My first task was to read through brochures they keep on hand…to be familiar with them. As if I’m not familiar enough with the stages of pregnancy. As if I don’t now what a nine week baby looks like. As if I don’t know what I lost. I tried to go somewhere else in my mind while I read the text and looked at the beautiful, agonizing images.

I lost so much.

It was hard to exchange pleasantries with S, when my eyes kept returning to her growing belly. I was two weeks behind her. I should look like that. She already knew the sex of her baby. Would I know by now? This baby was my fourth. I would have felt her kick by now.

I would have put off volunteering for longer if M hadn’t of contacted me. I was secretly hoping to not have to face it until I was pregnant. I wanted to say, “yeah, it was hard, but I’m ok…God has given me a new baby”. I wanted it to not hurt so badly. I wanted to not have to be jealous.

It’s so much sometimes. Lately, it’s been so much better. I go two or three days on end without even being sad about it. Then, out of the midnight side of blue, it hits me. An appointment card in the car…a pregnant lady in the store…a memory…a scent…and I’m reeling from the kick in the gut that I wasn’t expecting. Waves of sorrow that I thought had long receded. So hard and strong and inviting. I want to wade into them and lie down.

But they are waves, and, as surely as they come, they eventually retreat.

I survive, but they leave their mark. I know they’ve been there. My heart feels different. Lighter and heavier. Imprisoned and free. I wanted my baby so badly. I prayed for her. I begged for her.

I miss her.

Freedom’s Price

Filed under: General — Rachel at 10:50 am on Friday, July 4, 2008

by Marci Seither

Sand blew across the parking lot. It seemed we had found the edge of the world, but for our oldest son, Nathan and the other Marines stationed there, the colorless landscape of 29 Palms was home. Each company, dressed in desert camouflaged, lined up for roll call. Their gear was packed. Within a few hours they would be leaving for Afghanistan. Their recent training had been as intense as the blazing sun they would soon be facing on foreign soil.

Those of us who made the trip to see our loved ones gathered on the hot pavement.

An older well wisher wore a white baseball cap with “Korean Veteran” embroidered on the front. The faded tattoo on his forearm was so blurred it was hard to tell exactly what the original design had been. A weathered hand wiped away the tear that had escaped against his will. He remembered the taste, the sight and sounds of war, and wished he was young enough to go with his grandson and the men he now saluted.

A young woman rested her hand on the side of her rounded stomach. Her husband won’t be home for the delivery. Other young wives had been down this long good-bye road before, it was never easy.

Our children watched as their older brother stood at attention waiting for his name to be barked out during the final roll call. John, my husband, understood the routine. He was one of the “Semper Fi” and had deployed, but never into battle. This was all new for me. My stomach hurt, I couldn’t breathe. My mind was filled with things I wanted to say but the only words that managed to tumble out were “I love you.” It would be a long eight months.

“These are the faces of war that the media often misses, not just those who serve, but the families that stay home and wait, watch and worry,” I thought.

Each Marine responded to his name. There was a somber reality that many of us felt, but no one dared utter. Not all those who answered the roll call will be coming home alive.

I hope it’s not my son, I fervently wished. I knew that the mom on either side of me was wishing the same thing. You don’t want it to be anyone’s son, or grandson, nephew, brother or husband. But the reality is that freedom has a price.

That price was realized when John clicked onto the internet. The news was numbing. Four soldiers of the 2/7 Marines had been killed and the names had not been released.

Anxiety mixed with fear every time the phone rang. Forty eight hours later we received an e-mail from Nathan. He was fine. By the end of that week, a total of seven Marines from 2/7 were killed. Our hearts broke for those who had lost their son’s.

Having a child in the military is not easy, but I know that Mothers have worried for their sons at war from the very beginning of our country. If it weren’t for the sacrifice of others, we would not be waving flags of red white and blue, watching fireworks, or lining up along parade routes.

The real celebration for our family will be when Nathan and those in the 2/7 are back in the USA. When the bus full of exhausted Marines, anxious for a familiar embrace and the promise of a home cooked meal pulls into the depot, we will be there - at the edge of the world on soil that is still free.

HT to Barbara at MommyLife. I copied this article from her blog. I wanted to post it here, because I really liked it.

Last Day of Being 24

Filed under: Photos — Rachel at 5:17 pm on Thursday, July 3, 2008

Today was my last day of being twenty-four.It was kind of awesome.

We started out our day by taking the big kids to Roane County Park for swimming and a picnic. Owen couldn’t go because of his stitches, so he spent a few hours with his Mamaw Velvet.

Swimming on July 3

After that, we came home and made me presentable again, and then we picked up Owen, Chris bought me an ice cream cake for my birthday and some fireworks. We headed up to Wartburg to visit my Mamaw June and Papaw Jay.

Visiting Mamaw and Papaw

When we left there, we took Mamaw with us, and went to my parents’ house for my pre-birthday celebration I decided I should have. We had cake, played basketball, shot off fireworks, danced a little, and played freeze tag in the dark. You know you’re jealous.

Pre-Birthday Celebration

Tomorrow marks the day I become a quarter of a century old. We’re going to Kingston Park tomorrow evening for the big 4th of July shindig. Come see me, kids. We’ll probably be by the playground.

Owen Knows How To Clean His Plate

Filed under: General — Rachel at 8:13 pm on Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Stitches…Take 2

Filed under: Photos — Rachel at 4:30 pm on Tuesday, July 1, 2008

Owen took a tumble off the kitchen chair. I don’t exactly know how he injured himself so severely that way, but he did. Poor little guy had to get seven stitches. It’s only been eight months since his last set of stitches.

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